The untold truth of Lady Gaga

Lady Gaga reveals almost everything in her documentary, Gaga: Five Foot Two … but there's still a lot to learn about the enigmatic Mother Monster. Behold, the untold truth of the egg-dwelling, meat-wearing, Super Bowl slaying Lady Gaga.

She was accused of murdering a rival

Lady Gaga was acquainted with singer Lina Morgana, who committed suicide in 2008. TMZ reported that Morgana's mom accused Gaga of copying Morgana's signature styles, from her hoodie dresses to her eye makeup and vocals after they collaborated in 2007. The Sun reported in 2016 that conspiracy theorists believe Gaga was actually accused of murdering her alleged rival, who is said to have jumped off of a building — but Gaga wasn't even in the same country at the time of Morgana's death.

She may have been coerced into a bad record deal by an ex

Talent scout Wendy Starland sued producer Rob Fusari, claiming she was owed 50 percent of his earnings from Gaga's music in exchange for discovering the singer. In 2014, it was revealed that Gaga had a relationship with Fusari, and she accused him of intimidating her into signing a deal that wasn't ideal. "I believe that Rob led Wendy to believe that he would include her in the development of my career but had no intention of doing so," she said in a deposition (via Radar Online), adding that Fusari "used many inappropriate words … He dangled the paperwork in front of me until he got me, got me signed [to a deal that was] very one-sided and very daunting and disconcerting for a young female artist. I really wanted to move forward with my music career, but I remember I was advised very early that the terms of the agreement were not normal." Radar Online also reported that Gaga paid Fusari $10 million in a previous legal settlement after they'd each sued each other over wages allegedly owed.

She beefed with Christina Aguilera

Christina Aguilera told The Los Angeles Times of Mother Monster in 2008, "I'm not quite sure who this person is, to be honest. I don't know if it is a man or a woman. I just wasn't sure. I really don't spend any time on the internet, so I guess I live a little under a rock in that respect."

Gaga never actually dissed Xtina, but Akon, who discovered Gaga, did in 2010, when he told Vibe there was "no competition" between the belters. "You are actually giving Christina too much credit. She always had her cool little look and way about how she went about things. But soon as Gaga came out everything switched up."

In 2013, Gaga said on Watch What Happens Live (via Idolator), "I'm a very big fan of Christina Aguilera … Christina is an incredible vocalist and an incredible artist, and from me to her I'm so sorry for anything that anyone ever said to her because of my existence, and I hope that she never felt any way about it. Because when I was 15, I was singing 'I Turn To You' at the top of my lungs trying to hit all her notes." They soon buried the hatchet completely and collaborated on a remix of Gaga's "Do What You Want."

She accused Perez Hilton of stalking her

Perez Hilton was a staunch Little Monster in the early days of Gaga's fame, but turned against her at some point and mocked her charting numbers for "Applause" on Twitter when it debuted in August 2013. Gaga tweeted in response, "Still have the text Perez sent me of me in a wheelchair [with] the [word] 'KARMA' written across [and] Madonna pointing a gun at me. Day of my accident." She followed with a since-deleted tweet claiming Hilton stalked her at her New York apartment, which Hilton denied in a statement to The Hollywood Reporter, claiming that he was looking at a unit in the same building.

Gaga told Howard Stern (via The Los Angeles Times) that the feud stemmed from an incident in which Hilton "started asking me really terrible questions, and he was being very negative about Born This Way … He was supposed to be my friend and I felt betrayed … He apologized, but I sort of felt like it was like, 'But I'm Perez Hilton so I'm allowed to treat you this way.' I looked at him and said, 'Just because you are who you are, does not mean that our friendship doesn't mean anything when the cameras turn on. So, now I see who you really are.' And I was done after that. He's just mad that I don't want to hang out anymore because I don't want to be around fake people … He put an offer in on two apartments in the building. Why do you need to live in my apartment? There's only one reason: to try to hurt me, or harass me, or blow yourself up. If you hate me, hate me from over there. Continue firing away on your blog and your Twitter."

Madonna apologized to her

Everyone knows about Gaga's beef with Madonna, but not everyone knows that Madonna actually apologized to Gaga for basically bullying her in the press.

"So the thing with me and Madonna, for example, is that I admired her always, and I still admire her, no matter what she might think of me. The only thing that really bothers me about Madonna is that I'm Italian and from New York, and if I have a problem with you, I say it to your face," Gaga said in Lady Gaga: Five Foot Two (2017) (via People). "She wouldn't look me in the eye and tell me that I was reductive or whatever. Telling me you think I'm a piece of s**t through the media? It's like a guy passing me a note through his friend … I don't pass notes in school … I want Madonna to push me up against the wall and kiss me and tell me I'm a piece of s**t."

She also claimed in the film that she felt like Madonna "broke [her] heart" and kicked her when she was down, as Madge made her comments when Gaga was heavily medicated for her hip pain on her Born This Way Ball tour in 2012. She said the Queen Of Pop apologized to her privately for the remarks, but that she will "never trust her again."

Her career derailed her engagement

Gaga and Taylor Kinney called off their engagement in July 2016 after five years of being almost too adorable together, and now we know her side of the split: She hinted that her casting in the upcoming remake of A Star Is Born (2018) led to the end of their romance.

"Me and Taylor are fighting, so that sucks," she said in Lady Gaga: Five Foot Two (2017) (via People). "My threshold for bulls**t with men is just — I don't have one anymore. In relationships, you have to move together … My love life has just imploded. I sold 10 million [records] and lost Matt. I sold 30 million and lost Luc. I did a movie and lose Taylor. It's like a turnover. This is the third time I've had my heart broken like this."

She broke her hip

In February 2013, Gaga had to cancel her Born This Way Ball tour to get hip surgery that was initially reported to be for a labral tear. However, months later she revealed her condition was actually much worse. "My injury was actually a lot worse than just a labral tear—I had broken my hip," she told Women's Wear Daily in July 2013. "Nobody knew … But when we got all the MRIs finished before I went to surgery, there were giant craters, a hole in my hip the size of a quarter, and the cartilage was just hanging out the other side of my hip. I had a tear on the inside of my joint and a huge breakage … The surgeon told me that if I had done another show I might have needed a full hip replacement. I would have been out at least a year, maybe longer."

She suffers from chronic pain

Gaga detailed her struggles with chronic pain in her documentary Lady Gaga: Five Foot Two (2017). She expounded on the condition to press, explaining (via BuzzFeed), "There is an element and a very strong piece of me that believes pain is a microphone. My pain does me no good unless I transform it into something that is. So I hope people watching it who do struggle with chronic pain know that they're not alone. It's freeing for me … and I want people that struggle with it to hear me. There is a degree of self-deprecation and shame with feeling in pain a lot. And I want people that watch it—that think there's no way I live [with chronic pain] because they see me dance and sing and don't think that could possibly be—to know I struggle with things like them. I work through it and it can be done. We have to stick together. I don't have to hide it because I'm afraid it's weak. It's a part of me."

On Sept. 14, 2017, Gaga revealed that she had to cancel a Rock In Rio performance because of her health problems.  "I was taken to the hospital, it's not simply hip pain or wear & tear from tour, I'm in severe pain. I'm in good hands w/ the very best doctors" she tweeted … "Thought ice helped #Fibromyalgia. I was wrong & making it worse. Warm/Heat is better. Electric Heated Blanket, Infrared Sauna, Epsom Baths." Days later, she had to postpone her European tour due to severe pain from her fibromyalgia.

She's a sexual assault survivor

Lady Gaga was raped when she was 19 by a man twice her age, an experience that inspired her Oscar-nominated song "Til It Happens To You." She explained to The Hollywood Reporter in January 2016, "The person that I'm singing to [in the song] is the person that wants to heal me — I'm telling them they can't. I am so sick of people walking in and out of my life, telling me that I'm gonna be okay, because I am still in so much pain that you can't understand … It's something that changed me forever, and it made me question everything about what I had done to be where I am today. I thought to myself, 'Did I do something wrong to bring this on myself? What did I do?' I choose to wear these clothes, and I choose to dress this way and sing about sex, and you wonder if you're implying to people that it's okay."

She has PTSD

Gaga's sexual assault and physical problems gave the singer post-traumatic stress disorder, she revealed in December 2016 in an open letter on her Born This Way Foundation website.

"There is a lot of shame attached to mental illness … It is a daily effort for me …  to regulate my nervous system so that I don't panic over circumstances that to many would seem like normal life situations. Examples are leaving the house or being touched by strangers who simply want to share their enthusiasm for my music," she wrote. "I also struggle with triggers … I also experience something called dissociation, which means that my mind doesn't want to relive the pain so 'I look off and I stare' in a glazed over state … My body is in one place and my mind in another. It's like the panic accelerator in my mind gets stuck and I am paralyzed with fear. When this happens I can't talk. When this happens repeatedly, it makes me have a common PTSD reaction, which is that I feel depressed and unable to function like I used to … Additionally, when I am unable to regulate my anxiety, it can result in somatization, which is pain in the body caused by an inability to express my emotional pain in words."

Her 'Do What You Want' video was poorly timed

Gaga's music video for her single "Do What You Want," featuring R. Kelly and directed by Terry Richardson, was set for a December 2013 release but never officially saw the light of day. In June 2014, she blamed the lack of a visual for the track on poor scheduling, but there was likely another factor influencing her decision to block its release: In December 2013, a Village Voice article detailed "stomach-churning" sexual assault allegations against Kelly, while Richardson was facing sexual harassment allegations. The video, unearthed by TMZ, is extra disturbing in light of the accusations levied against its participants and creative team, as well as her own experience with sexual assault.

She had an eating disorder

In February 2012, Gaga opened up about her struggles with bulimia and anorexia as a teen.

"I used to throw up all the time in high school. So I'm not that confident," Gaga said at a women's conference (via Page Six). "I wanted to be a skinny little ballerina but I was a voluptuous little Italian girl whose dad had meatballs on the table every night. I used to come home and say, 'Dad, why do you always give us this food? I need to be thin.' And he'd say, 'Eat your spaghetti.' It's really hard, but … you've got to talk to somebody about it."

She revealed that her binging and purging actually negatively impacted not just her health, but also her music.

"It made my voice bad, so I had to stop. The acid on your vocal cords — it's very bad. But for those of you who don't sing, you maybe don't have that excuse until it's too late," she said. "It's very dangerous."

She added, "Weight is still a struggle. Every video I'm in, every magazine cover, they stretch you — they make you perfect. It's not real life … I'm gonna say this about girls: The dieting wars have got to stop. Everyone just knock it off. Because at the end of the day, i”s affecting kids your age. And it's making girls sick."

She was addicted to marijuana

Gaga admitted that she was actually addicted to marijuana.

"I have been addicted to it and it's ultimately related to anxiety coping and it's a form of self-medication," she told Elvis Duran And The Z100 Morning Show in November 2013 (via People). "I was smoking up to 15 to 20 marijuana cigarettes a day with no tobacco. I was living on a totally other psychedelic plane, numbing myself completely, and looking back I do see now that some of it had to do with my hip pain. I didn't know where the pain was coming from so I was just in a lot of pain and very depressed all the time and not really sure why."

Gaga told Attitude (via Spin) that performance artist Marina Abramovic helped her cut back on her marijuana use. "It wasn't until I was with Marina and she said, 'Okay, you're coming to my house: No television, no computer, no marijuana, no nothing, no food. For three days, art only. You eat only art.' I cold-turkeyed. For weeks and weeks I didn't smoke at all," she said. "Now I smoke a little bit at night, just you know, for fun—but not to cope. That's the difference. Marina was the only person who could get me to do that and it was not intended to be rehab."

It appears Gaga never quite kicked her weed habit: In her documentary, Lady Gaga: Five Foot Two (2017), she smokes joints often.

She abused other drugs as well

"I've been addicted to various things since I was young, most heavily over the past seven years," Gaga revealed to Elvis Duran And The Z100 Morning Show in November 2013 (via People). "A friend gave me this term, 'I lily pad from substance to substance,' because I get to a point where I can't go any further with one substance so I move to another. But the truth is that it is very hard to be famous. It's wonderful to be famous because I have amazing fans. But it is very, very hard to go out into the world when you are not feeling happy and act like you are because I am a human being too and I break, and I think there is an assumption … that I cannot break because I am an alien woman and I am unstoppable. The truth is that I can break, and I did. I was not very good at breaking. I lost everything that I love. I was in a wheelchair for six months. I did a lot of drugs and took a lot of pills."

She added, "I do put that pressure on myself; I have to be high to be creative. I need that, that's an error in my life that happened for over 10 years. Can I be brilliant without it? I know that I can be and I have to be because I want to live, and I want my fans to want to live."

She may have changed chart rules

Gaga's chart power can't be disputed, but the root causes of her sales success have been debated—and when Born This Way dropped in May 2011, it sold so many units that Billboard may have altered their chart rules because of it. Entertainment Weekly reported that Gaga sold more than 1 million copies of Born This Way in its first week of release, and 440,000 of those units were from an Amazon fire sale that gave buyers the entire album for 99 cents.

Following the success of Born This Way (and its discount), in November 2011, Billboard adjusted its rules: Now only albums priced at $3.49 or above can be eligible for charting. Had that regulation been in effect when Born This Way was released, Gaga still would have moved 880,000 units of her album, which is impressive—but Entertainment Weekly reported that Lil Wayne's Tha Carter IV actually would have come in a No. 1 that week.