Kelly Clarkson: Her tragic real-life story

When fans first met Kelly Clarkson on American Idol, she came across as a bright and cheery person with big dreams to fulfill. Clarkson's sweet persona stuck around after she won the reality competition series on Sept. 4, 2002, and she soon ascended to the top of the music industry's food chain with hits like "A Moment Like This." Though Clarkson usually has an upbeat attitude, she showed another side of herself when she released "Because of You" years later. Were the song's emotional lyrics hinting at the singer's sad past?

Of course, Clarkson is as layered as any other celebrity out there, though her background is sadder than some, given her numerous struggles throughout childhood and adulthood. Take Clarkson's fractured relationship with her biological father, for instance. The Grammy winner does not have a relationship with her dad, and their estrangement may have even once hampered her ability to form meaningful relationships.

Grab a box of tissues and let's dissect the tragic real-life story of Kelly Clarkson.

Childhood heartbreak

Clarkson's hit "Because of You" is chock full of heartbreaking lyrics. "Because of you / I never stray too far from the sidewalk," she croons in one verse. "Because of you / I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt." 

Sadly, this painful ballad is about Clarkson's biological father, Stephen Michael Clarkson, and her parents' messy divorce, as reported by MTV News. Stephen failed to keep in touch after he split from Clarkson's mom when she was 6 years old, a devastating blow for any child. Clarkson tried to reach out to Stephen herself, but she was reportedly rejected multiple times in what she referred to as a "humiliating" effort. 

"You're like, I shouldn't have to work this hard for someone's love. Like, that's a little ridiculous," she explained during a November 2017 interview with Skavlan, a Scandinavian talk show. "And at that point, too, you grow up so much to where you go, okay, I don't even think you're capable [of love]."

Clarkson, however, has a healthy outlook about her history with her father. "I know a lot of people go, 'Aww,' but it's not really that situation," she explained. "I think If you don't grow up with it, it's hard to miss something you never had."

Well, it sounds to us like Stephen is the one who is missing out here. 

The lingering effects of divorce

Given Kelly Clarkson's non-existent relationship with her dad, it's really no surprise that her parents' divorce left a lasting impact on her life. Making matters even more difficult? Clarkson's mother, Jeanne, split from her second husband when the singer was 19 years old, according to the Mirror.

Witnessing a string of failed relationships within her family led Clarkson to question whether lasting love is possible. "Divorce isn't fun," Clarkson told the Mirror in January 2012. "It affects relationships you get into when you are older. I think you have to work a little harder because you're constantly thinking it's probably not going to work out in the end."

Luckily for Clarkson, her husband, Brandon Blackstock, restored her faith in relationships in more ways than one. "This isn't a downer to anybody I dated before him, but I'm just going to be real: I never felt like, [honestly], sexually attracted to anybody before him," Clarkson revealed during a private show for SiriusXM listeners in November 2017, according to People. She noted, "There was something about him."

Homelessness and financial woes

Before Clarkson made it big, she was homeless for a short period of time. Pretty shocking, right? It's especially wild to think about when you consider that Clarkson's net worth is $28 million as of January 2019, according to Celebrity Net Worth

So, how did Clarkson end up in this terrible situation? It all started when Clarkson's apartment in Los Angeles burned down, a stroke of bad luck that motivated her to audition for American Idol. "I had no idea what the show was until the third audition. My goal was just to be a backup singer — I never intended to be in front," she explained to The Guardian in October 2011. Sharing that she'd lost her apartment to a fire, she said, "I had to move home, I had no money and I had to sleep in my car for three days. I just auditioned for this thing that said they'd pay you, and it happened to be American Idol. I didn't go into it thinking this would happen; I went into it thinking it might pay my electric bill."

Surprisingly, that wasn't the first time Clarkson faced financial hardship. In a June 2015 interview with CBS Sunday Morning, Clarkson opened up about how her family once lived "pre-paycheck to pre-paycheck" growing up. Regarding her outlook on finances, she said, "I definitely had this whole mentality, I was like, 'Whatever I'm gonna do, I just don't want to have to worry that.'"

Bullying in the music industry

Although Clarkson's successful career might appear effortless on the surface, she has endured some tough moments in the music industry. Case in point: She butted heads with legendary record producer Clive Davis during her time at RCA Records, a label owned by Sony Music. Davis took over RCA in 2004, before the release of Clarkson's album Breakaway

Clarkson, who was excited to work with Davis, was disappointed when he allegedly bashed one of Breakaway's singles, "Because of You." The performer claimed that Davis cruelly ripped the track apart to her face during a meeting. "I was told that was a sh***y song because it didn't rhyme," she recalled in a profile for Variety. "A group of men thought it was OK to sit around a young woman and bully her. I was told I should shut up and sing."

Clarkson, however, has been able to find the silver lining in her feud with Davis. "The only victory I see from the last 15 years is honestly just the fact that, even in such an incredibly not-healthy environment, we were very successful," she stated.

Dealing with suicidal thoughts

Some of Clarkson's most dedicated supporters might be heartbroken to learn that the singer contemplated suicide during a particularly "dark" period in her life. Although Clarkson didn't reveal exactly when this happened, she admitted that she was "really skinny" at the time. "When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life," she explained to Attitude (via NME). "But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense."

To deal with the stress, Clarkson sought refuge in physical fitness. "It was a very dark time for me," Clarkson elaborated. "I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time."

While many people assumed that Clarkson became suicidal due to body image issues, this wasn't the case. "Just to clear something up. I wasn't ever miserable because I had to be thin," she explained via Twitter. "I said I was miserable & as a result I became thin." She further explained that she'd never thought to take her own life because of her size, noting, "I said people had no idea I was unhappy oddly enough because I appeared healthy."

Fat-shaming throughout her career

It's no secret that Hollywood places an emphasis on looks. Someone who knows this all too well is Clarkson, who has been body-shamed throughout her career. The singer first experienced this sad reality during American Idol. She told People, "Even on American Idol I was really thin, but I was bigger than the other girls on the show, so people would say things to me."

Fortunately, Clarkson didn't pay her haters any attention. "But luckily I am superconfident, so I've never had a problem with shutting people down and saying, 'Yeah, you know, that's just what I'm rocking. It's fine,'" she said. 

Clarkson's confidence aside, it's still upsetting that she continues to face criticism post-Idol. One example of this is when Fox News' Chris Wallace fat-shamed Clarkson during an an interview on The Mike Gallagher Show. "She could stay off the deep-dish pizza for a little while," Wallace told Gallagher (via The Hollywood Reporter). Sheesh.

Clarkson also experiences hate on social media. One time, a Twitter user called Clarkson "fat" after she shared a 2017 Fourth of July message, as reported by Rolling Stone. Clarkson smoothly responded, "….and still f***ing awesome." Get 'em, girl.

She was hospitalized while pregnant

Clarkson was undoubtedly overjoyed when she learned she was pregnant with her first daughter, River Rose. "I'm pregnant!!! Brandon and I are so excited! Best early Christmas present ever," Clarkson tweeted in November 2013.

Sadly, Clarkson's mood soon took a downward turn due to severe nausea. "I had to kind of take longer off because I had such a horrible pregnancy — like, I was like hospitalized," she told BBC Radio (via ABC News), revealing that she would sometimes throw up 25 times a day. "It was just a bad pregnancy so I had to take off way more time than normal." Poor mama.

But wait — that's not all. Prior to giving birth to River, Clarkson didn't know that she has a serious health issue that prevents her from delivering vaginally. "It turns out I can't ever have a natural birth, [there's a problem with] my pelvic inlet or something," she told Ellen DeGeneres in 2015 (via Closer Online). If Clarkson hadn't requested a c-section before going into labor, she potentially could have died while giving birth. Scary stuff.

About those cheating rumors...

Imagine you and your partner are expecting your first child together, only to have your happiness dampened by cheating rumors. This is exactly what happened to Clarkson in December 2013, when multiple women accused Blackstock of being unfaithful.

"We met at a golf club in TN and have exchanged multiple texts and hung out a few times over the last little while," one woman claimed to The Dirty (via the Daily Mail). "We haven't slept together but we've been intimate in other ways." Another woman told the outlet, "I have been involved with him as well — quite a bit more seriously than the other woman," noting, "It amazes me how manipulative this guy can be. One minute he's professing his undying love for his wife (Kelly Clarkson) and the next minute he's stepping out on her when she's not looking."

Poor Clarkson. We can't even begin to imagine how these rumors affected Clarkson's stress levels. But the singer was able to quickly debunk the gossip on Twitter, writing, "Keep hearing random rumors of me & Brandon splitting or that's he's cheating on me. Stop with all the lying please #aintnobodygottimeforthat."

A terrifying invasion of privacy

In a terrifying turn of events, Kelly Clarkson's Los Angeles-area home that she shares with Blackstock and their two children was burglarized in December 2017. Clarkson opened up about the scary news at the 2017 Billboard Women in Music Awards. To Extra's Renee Bargh, Clarkson revealed before the ceremony, "We got robbed last night. Yeah, it was crazy. We got here and our whole house was, like, bashed in." 

Although the thief only got away with "materialistic things" that she and Blackstock "didn't care" about, the whole situation was still upsetting because the perp was in their children's bedroom at one point. "The guy was in our kids' room … so it was a little weird," she said, adding that her children were unharmed. 

While Clarkson is lucky that no one got hurt, it's never a good feeling when a person's privacy is invaded in such a manner — especially when kids are involved.